I cannot imagine things getting better than they are at this moment.
But it will, I know that.
When I was a kid I never dreamed of having a family and being a Mom. I dreamed of love-marriage-growing old with one person.
Never really had a 2nd thought to motherhood.
I can completely, positively say that I never had a desire for children until Justin. I saw him, fell in love and instantly had visions of babies, teenagers, becoming grandparents with this guy.
It was overwhelming.
Then, last year when I turned 27, I started to get really bummed that we didn't have kids.
We were newlyweds, it was definitely not a time to be adding to a family.
But I think what hit me the most was that my own Mom was 27 when she had me.
I really started to feel I was missing something major.
But it isn't that simple.
Justin never wanted children.
Until, me. Until, more specifically, my nephew:
He so loves Scotty, and Scotty adores Justin. It makes me jealous, but whatever ;)
So, two weeks outside of turning 28, my biggest thought is, "Am I going to be a mother before 30?"
I feel that YES, I will.
But, waiting? It sucks.